When I cry it feels like:
- my chest is going to collapse.. maybe more emotionally than physically but it all feels as if the pain is real and can always be felt.
-my throat is going to burst
-a throbbing pain in my head
-my eyes seem like a dysfunctional water faucet that can't handle the water pressure and spontaneously breaks down
-a never ending cycle, like I'm going round and nothings changed. All situations end the same way. I'm trapped in my own body. I'm not "allowed" to be myself. To feel a way that I cannot help. - To love someone that I love unconditionally. Because we're of the same sex... and the popular story of Adam and Eve- "god made man for woman and woman for man." Maybe it's time for a change, a change that will
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People change over time. Change is inevitable. You can't change the inevitable or stop it from happening. No one had control over it.. we all personally have control over our perspective- the way we see things- not being open minded. how we will react and go about the situation, problem or whatever it is. Every time I lost someone, or their trust, times when promises were broken, went through a breakup, etc. A part of me was taken with them. I guess that's why it seems there's always something inside that's hurting. Like missing puzzle pieces. Holes and spaces that I can't seem to find anything that's right to fill them.
When i did feel complete, I was also still in the dark. And technically "in the closet". Even though most people didn't know i had a girlfriend I was completely in love with, I was so happy and it seemed like none of the other stuff mattered. Ignorance is bliss...i most definitely want back my ignorance and bliss. Never would I have thought that I would have found My soul mate, the girl who completes me, the girl I am meant to be with while I'm 15. But I know how I feel. There's no stopping or getting rid of feelings, i mean that's way beyond my control. And maybe, just maybe I don't wanna stop the feelings or change them or get rid of them. I love the tingly excited feeling I get in my tummy when I see her. I love how whenever I see her, I can't help but smile. She
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I yearn to just be myself. And not be restricted as to how I feel pr have to hide parts of me. I'm a 15 year old sophomore. In about 3 years, Ill be leaving home. Moving away to be on my own and makes my the choices and decisions my by self. And I think that who I chose to date is something I should be able to decide myself. I don't think I need someone to make that choice for me. No one else knows how I feel. Therefore, why can anyone tell me how I shouldn't feel?. just because they don't approve or believe in it. All I want is to be happy, and feel complete. With her I do. She me a better me. I thought I deserved to be happy. But I guess not.there's no getting out of it now, I'm way more than knee deep in it. Even through all the sadness and tears, I still feel my obligation as a best friend. I'm so loyal and committed that even if I wanted to, I can't leave her hanging. When she can't sleep at 3AM and she needs to talk, I'm there for her. I love those calls. I'll always have her back. Even though I still hurt inside, I love my best friend to death. And the last 7 should have proven to her and to anyone else that I'd do anything for
I did as she said, placing my chin in the weird machine, watching a house go in and out of focus. The woman who was testing my eyes told me to move over to the next machine. I did so, and placed my chin on the holder that she indicated. Something that felt like a bullet of wind shot into my eye, and I jumped. The lady laughed and sent me to another room. A man came outside and called my name. I went inside the room, and sat in this chair that looked like a dentist's chair, putting my chin up again. The man clicked through lenses.
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Life is constantly changing. Sometimes its big ways, but the majority happens little by little. One example in my life, slowly changed how I thought about other people. This was when I had my braces for about 5 years. In the beginning, I had to go through a surgery to expose a tooth. I saw absolutely no reason why I had to get my teeth corrected which I thought was just a cosmetic issue. Because of this thinking, I was pretty grumpy towards my orthodontist and his staff. About a year and a half, something just clicked and I realized it wasn't their fault for doing their job. If there was anybody to blame it would be my parents and there was no way I would be difficult towards them. I decided to start being polite to my orthodontist and would
I’ve felt somehow damaged, somehow unfixable. Like something is missing, but what? That’s the question.
“This is a great experience, you’ll make so many new friends!” my parents told me excitedly
Brrrrrrringgg! The high-pitched tone on my phone rings temptingly, but I manage to resist the urge to look at the new message. Reading under the dim light in my bedroom, I can still hear the clatter of plates and busy shuffling outside my door as the night turns black over the colonial city of Leon. Luckily, my shift is over, and I can now try to focus on my schoolwork. At 12 years old, I started working as the cashier in my parents’ tiny Spanish restaurant. We moved to Leon in search of a better future, leaving broken promises behind as well as a host of caring friends that I would never see again. It would take a while, but, eventually, I would see reality through the eyes of an adult, even though I was just a kid.
Life can change in the blink of an eye sometimes. I am not talking about events that happen around in quick succession which can change your life, because usually after a period of time, things will revert back to normal. What I am talking about is how sometimes once your perspective changes, your entire outlook on life changes. Even just small shifts in the way you think and see the things in the world can change who you are as a person.
PonyBoy and Darry went to the hospital to visit Johnny. The doctor had gave the boys some great news about Johnny, and said that he was going to be ok as far as the doctors knew. PonyBoy and Darry were so thankful that he was going to be alright after all. The doctor spoke and said, “ You guys are still going to have to take good care of him, make sure he does not smoke. It will damage his system. “ Darry responded, “ Alright doc, i’ll try to. “ After Johnny had got out of the hospital, the guys had met up with the rest of the gang. So they could take Johnny out to eat at dairy queen. Johnny was so thankful and happy that he was with his friends once he got out. He had been through so much pain that all he needed now was his friends
The saying goes “Change is what makes the world go round”. Well, my world would move much smoother if I got rid of a few things. Table condiments, meatloaf and roller chairs have got to go! My world would be a better place if these items didn’t exist!
As I sat down to write how I have improved and what my weaknesses are it took forever for anything to come to mind. I kept thinking, “Well I did improve on this, but I would still consider it a weakness.” I was staring at my blank page on my laptop and my outline I did not come with any ideas. I excel at writing, and punctuation; however, I struggle in writing a thesis, comma splices, and word choices.
someone. One of the hardest responsibilities I've ever had to take on, was when I had to babysit, Brennan, my little brother. I thought I would not do a good job, but I knew it was something I had to learn how to do. Also, when I babysat my brother, I felt that it would help my parents if I knew how to take care of him. Although I was very nervous, I told my parents that I would babysit my little brother. Something that I didn't know, was that I was learning a lot about taking responsibility for things in life. It was a very interesting learning experience for me.
High school. The place where your supposed to find yourself, determine who you are and who you want to be. Some people take this opportunity for good and some take it for granted. Those who abuse this opportunity end up broken and lost and they never find their true self’s till they have lost everything they ever thought they had.
Music isn’t something that I have ever understood, or have been able to work with. Knowing how hard it is to read notes and play an instrument, I have a great deal of respect for composers, musicians, and artists. This reading had a lot of information on the formation of classical pieces and I struggled to fully understand it as a whole, because of lack of knowledge of the vocabulary used.
To be honest I’ve been different all my life. The one thing that stands out the most is I’m adopted. I usually don’t tell anyone, but when people see who my mom is they ask questions. I do not know if I tell them the truth that I am adopted or do I say that these are my actual parents. I guess I am scared that people are going to think of me differently. I’m just that type of kid that I want everyone to like me, because I do not like myself for who I am. Sometimes this comes to my head I feel like my birth mom made the right decision to give me up for adoption. If she hadn’t I wouldn’t have known my family and friends, and I can’t imagine living my life without them. Even though I’m adopted I believe that it has made me the person I am today. Sometimes I sit and think about this whole construct of life it becomes too overwhelming for my mind to contain. But there actually one thing that I can not handle is that what my mom did I could never forgive her for what she
You might have fallen in love in high school and thought were going to last forever with this person, nobody can tear you guys apart, right? Time can tear you guys apart. “Man-Made Misery” argued that you couldn’t find happiness after a break up, I disagree with this because even though you may never feel like you can love again after that person, you will become stronger and be able to hold up the weigh tin your heart. It might feel like you